hey....i want sam because he's always there for me no matter what happens, i love him but for some reason we just can't connect during sex. plus we have nothing in common. he's just such a sweet guy.

i want james because i think about him all the time, and i love being with him etc. etc. it's like i want them both, i feel so pathetic!

why can't i make a decision?!!!

oh....plus james has a girlfriend, and i'm SO scared of telling him how i feel and ruining our friendship - but on the other hand, he totally affects my happiness - like i called him a few days ago, and he never returned my call....and since then i've been feeling depressed about it!!!

how sad, i know. but it's like i can't help it! i thought i'd get over james by now, but it's been over a year!! and i STILL can't get him out of my head.