There is a girl I like, well, like is a weak word. Lets say love. But I don't think she feels anything for me. We are friends, but after I told her about my feelings for her (which I did a piss poor job of, all shes knows is that "I like her"), she just became incredibly distant. I don't think she likes me whatsoever, and it is killing me.

She is all I think about, I can't eat, I can't sleep, and I'm physically making myself ill over this. I'm a neurotic wreck. I want to tell her how much I love her, but I am afraid. Afraid of rejection, afraid of exposing my self so deeply, and afraid I won't be able to express myself correctly.

I'm so miserable, I love someone so much, and they don't have any feelings for me.

Should I talk to her about it? What should I say? I just don't know, I'm so confused and lonely. I have nobody to talk to. She is one of my friends' exs, so talking about this with any of my friends is probably a bad idea. Plus, I would probably just come off as insane.

I need help, I don't know what to do. All I know is, I can continue like this. I need to use drugs to mask my pain so I can stand to bear the pain of reality. I hate it, I just want to be normal, to be loved, to no longer be alone.

I can't even look at other women these days, or masturbate for that matter. I am not interested in either of these things at all anymore. She is just so perfect, she is all I think about.

And she hasn't said anything to me about this whole situation. True, she doesn't know much (just that I like her). But I don't know if she isn't saying anything because she doesn't care, or she just doesn't like me at all. It just makes me feel so bad. When I told her I liked her, the only thing she said was thank you. I tell her my feelings, and I don't even get a simple acceptance or rejection. I'm just confused.

Please, please, help.