Hi, thanks for you feedback, I appreciate you been honest related this subject..
I just wanted to clarified something with you!
Yes it is selfish in some point of my part, but when that whole thing happend about the 3somes, my boyfriend iniciated, he told me that he wanted to see me with an other men..I did not want to do it but I did it for him. Now I ask him do you want me to do this because you want to have another women and he said no I will never pressure you to do that..
Now what happen with the other guy (between me and him) I never screw him... I had many time the opportunity but I told him no that is not fair for my bf.. I not sure what really happen that night... I am quite aware that I did something wrong, it happen once, I did told my bf but of course he does not believe what I say...

Related the other girl, well yes he should pick her.. but he want me to get intimid with her and I can't do this with someone that I don't feel attractive with.. sorry..
He also want to keep friends with her...like he want her to come over to play card, and all kind of stuff... so obviously it seem that he wants to build a relationship with the girls that he want to do this with.. and to me its playing with fire..
I been living hell since that stuff happend with that guy, its kind of hard for me to be with him an other women when he keep calling me names, smack my face and make stupid comment in front of people....he make me fell that the only reason he want to do it with an other women is because once he's been in bed with her then it will be easyer to go further and then dump me...