Okay, so I'm back from San Francisco, and it was great. I met my online friend, and we got along great (albeit I was awkward the first day).

I don't really get it, though. Although this summer has been great in general, I still get depressed quite a bit. Not so much depressed, but... down. I don't get why it would be. My friends are great, I'm gonna finally have more freedom... these are all things that make me happy.

My only guess is the lack of a girlfriend... which trips my mind a little bit. I've never had one, so how would I know what I'm missing to be sad about it? It has made me sad before, but I also know that love just comes.. usually unexpectedly.

I feel as if something is missing in my life.. or something. It's hard to describe the feeling. I feel alone although I know I am not. Has anyone felt this way? Can anyone make hypotheses on why I feel this way? It has been tripping me for so long.. I guess i just needed to get this out somehow.

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