Christ, it's beginning to really hit me now... I'm beginning to think it's all wrong, I look at my wall right now and I see a whole load of drawings Amandine has done for me... and I don't want it to end anymore, it's going to be ridiculously painful...

I'm lost now, I'm not sure friendship is enough anymore... is this normal?!

I don't wanna be caught in one of those bs drama series things of "I love you too much to let you go" despite how much a pain she is :/ Then again I still don't want to be her boyfriend responsibility wise... perhaps I'm subconsiously afraid of losing her as a friend, and I don't realise it... this is so pathetic, how on Earth could anyone fall in love again after something like this, I find hard to believe...