There is a reason why the people of this board are reluctant to help you. That is because we cant. People get tired of giving advice to someone who wont use that advice.

Listening to us is not enough. You cant reasonably expect us to just waste our time giving you advice that wont have any effect.

For example, right now, I feel moved to tell you that you can leave this man and support yourself like millions of other single adults. However, because of your complex, you will stay with him even if he beats you to death.

Its just too frustrating trying to help you because you wont even help yourself.