you see I would but I feel that deserve it (even though it's not technically cheating) because he was hurt by this. Trust me. In my past relationships before, any of my bf's cheated on me or similar to that... I left them and that was that. I didn't want an explanation, nothing. This is different. I broke his heart first and he was mad all this time about it. No one should put up with it but I'm just asking how to deal with it. Cause i'm going through some mad anxiety problems