OMG...long time babygirl! Ok~you know my thoughts Im sure without even going into detail. But, life is a risk in everything or nothing. You do what you want and you feel is right for YOU. I am one NOT to judge your situation and neither should anyone else. Im afraid for you in this one. Youve gotten over the initial hurt from before, and have established a good solid friendship with him. I wouldnt rock the boat Jane. Leave things alone. I'm sure its going to hurt by letting things be as they are, but its better than putting yourself out there when you know things arent going to change with him, not right now.

As for your thoughts on the soul mate, I can TOTALLY see your point, and if things are meant to be with him, then it will be, but maybe at another time. You HAVE to let this go Jane. I can tell you go ahead and spill your guts out to him, and you do run the risk of losing a friendship. Wouldnt you rather MAINTAIN what you have to keep those possible doors open later on? YOU need to move on in another direction yourself. IF he is having another affair with someone else, it should tell you something. Dont play this one Jane. Its not fair to you.

You and I both know "some" men want their cake and eat it too, dont let him have it right now. IF you want him to see you for who you are, then you walk away from this. Ultimately it is your decision, it is your heart and soul. Personally sweetie, I hate to see you get caught up in this one AGAIN. You are too damn awesome and special to get burned. Let go.

I love you and I hope you'll call me. I miss you.
Again, this is your call, and I know you'll do whats best for you in the long run.

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