Hi Reverie
Okay, this is the main problem right here:
i find now i don't enjoy kissing him, making love feels like a chore, i don't really find him attractive anymore either. when we are together i feel akward and like conversation is forced. By Reverie
Everything else is just a side effect of the above. Being with some one who is suppose to be your better half for only 2 hours per day is NOT ENOUGH!!! That seriously has to change and your husband has to take this issue on board as a very very very serious issue. I think he has to have a very serious think about what is more important to him his job or his marriage (I think it has come down to this level). You will have to accept the consecquances of his decision. Whether it to no be with you or to be with you, but enter a financial hardship.
This issue has obviously caused some serious damage in your relationship, but trust me it is way way way too early to give up on your marriage. The most important thing is to spend a lot more time together and rediscover some of those feeling that have been lost over the year (Yes it is posible to love the same person again). You and him clearly need to get away for awhile and spend time in romantic settings. If all else fails, please seek counceling for new advice on how to handle a collapsing marriage due to disenchantment.
In regards of #2 you have to understand that it's just an infatuation. You are left alone with no one to give you attention, #2 has filled that void for now (I am 99% certain this is something that will go away). Please don't fall into the trap of misplacing your affection towards the outside while you still have many opportunities in your current relationship...
Loosing love for the person you are with is a very very serious issue. Marriages end this way. I think you have to take immediate steps to try to resolve this issue... Hope above helps!!!
