One day I'm up and one day I'm down
I have less smiles and more frowns
i really dont want to be in this place
i want to get up and see a happy face
i've been down a bad path before
i wont allow myself to do that anymore
i know what i feel is nothing like before
i've accepted it cant be anything more
this isnt a pattern of hanging on to them
the last relationship was a has been
i never thought id carry these feelings for so long
seeing him now blew my heart away is that wrong
i want to know its okay to feel sad
never wanted someone and then feel bad
in my mind i will have moved on
but in my heart i will always long
i have put myself back where i should be
i dont have to have him he created that need
i will be fine moving on with my life
there maybe bad days but only slight
i can admit i was the rat caught in a trap
eventually i realized and grabbed the map
i can admit i was the fly stuck on the sticky stuff
but i wiggled free because i knew i was strong enough
now i feel like i am a cocoon just ready
to come out free, confident, and steady
if this has taught me one thing in my journey
i've learned God has my back and I'm still learning...


ok-remember these were written months ago, and i havent written since, just a way to vent, did it for about 2 weeks and that's it. Not in an emotional state like that anymore,

Innova thats why you keep them, you can look back and go "oh thank God I'm NOT there anymore!"