Your right Vanilla:
I have trouble thinking someone would be interested in me. I am good looking but know one has even shown an interest in me. You can say all i do is work and ride my horse on the week-end. I just dont know if he really is interested in me.. Yea peaple tell me hell girl if he wasnt he would not be with you all the time but i am so not use to that. Even my BF is never with me.. We live different lives. He does his thing and i do mine. Our relationship has been on the rocks for 7 years but i so do not want to hurt him. Sometimes i wonder why.. he did not care when he went off with an other for 6 months 7 years ago.

Damn this is worst than i thought.. I have never been alone and all of this is scarry to me.