The last thing I want to do is start filling my "closet" again. I did that my entire childhood and even into my adult years. Earlier this year, I took dramatic steps to clear it out and get back into those corners, where the cobwebs are thickest. I, too, know the effects of a closet door busting at the hinges. I definitely need to avoid this. I will monitor the situation as honestly as possible. I'll try and be open about what's going on and seek advice often. Right now, I feel like my feelings for her are beyond desire and lust. I have no urge for things to be anything more than they are right now. Of course, that doesn't mean the monsters aren't just clamming up at the moment. I know very well the "knotty" feeling you speak of. It was with me earlier in the week and hasn't reclaimed my stomach since Wednesday. I need to make sure it doesn't come back. There is a part of me that wonders if my love for her won't turn out to be a genuine love of friendship with nothing more complicated. I'll let the new week unfold and reevaluate Wednesday evening. Thats when we will be at work together. Until then, I'm gonna keep up with everything else I need to do and try to keep my thoughts from straying too much. When I think of her, I'll be redirecting those energies unto myself.

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