i understand how you fell completely , i believe everybody feels like this at least once in their life .

you want to be social . ok then let that be one of your goals , just do it . go and find youself friends ... it sounds easier than done , but i remeber your post before about us suggesting things , i believe you already know the answers , all our missing is motivation , to have enthusiasm . just believe in yourself and push your limits , you will see how much you will accomplish , and never give up , the only thing that can stop you is yourself and your actions .