OK I tried to make this as brief as possible..

Met a girl - love at first sight - really. Four months of heaven. Last month she was here, before returning home for a couple months, very little contact. She had no time - busy schedule. It felt weird.

She goes home for a month. Doesn't return two emails. I actually got councelling over this time - it really hurt over two months. She comes back. After a month of being here she calls me. We go for dinner and she says she met a guy just before she left. She said she liked him.

I didn't think much of the other guy - hey I met other girls too. So I continued to call. We went out for drinks. She asks what do I think she wants - I say trust, compassion, caring etc... She says men want sex and women want security. I say I agree to a certain extent.

I am doing well for myself financially and I also do some modelling. I am one year older than her (I'm 30). I am ready at this stage to get married and have kids.

We then meet for coffee. She tells me she wants to pursue a relationship with the other guy. She tells me he is 42, has two kids and is divorced. She says she is not that close to him yet - that they haven't kissed or anything.

I say thanks for telling me - that I wish her well and that I hope she is happy (I would have liked her to tell me earlier though). She says she wants to stay friends and that I can call whenever I want. At first I say no - I can't be friends, but then I say OK.

Those close to me say give to give it one month to see how I feel. They say if I don't do anything that she will eventually call. But even if she does want to get back with me I don't know if I can.

What bugs me is what she is getting into with that guy compared to me. Maybe its my personality or something - I told her early on that I love her - maybe I made it to easy for her. I am pretty emotional sometimes.

Tell me your thoughts - I could never get back with her right? Because I know she doesn't love me? It felt like she really did.