Ike, I hope you haven`t taken offense to what I said about your reply. I appreciate greatly you taking the time to express your opinion as well as everyone else that has replied. I kinda understood what you were saying, but your sentence didn`t seem to flow well and it made it hard for me to understand what you were trying to say.

I haven`t gotten serious with or even found anyone to have something serious with in 5 years due to failed relationships in the past. I denounced trying to find someone and just went about my daily life and found a hobby to keep my mind occupied. I have dated in these past few years, but never found anyone that I felt worthy of having something serious with. I am very marriage minded and don`t care to date just to date. This young lady comes into my life and sweeps me off of my feet. She is everything I could ever hope to find in someone. I`m not crazy about her having a child, but she`s only human and realizes she made a mistake. She has to live with that mistake everyday now and be constantly reminded of it. She loves her child very much and wants nothing but the best for her and is very protective of her child as well as herself because of her past and her daughter. I respect her for that decision. I think she is making a wise decision for herself and her child. I just wish she could see that I`m not just someone trying to get in her pants. I have honest and sincere intentions with her. I have told her that and made it well known to her. I have sent her large bouquets of flowers to her work and have written several letters to her speaking from my heart. I have made my intentions with her very clear. She is a very unique and special lady that I admire greatly. It`s very hard to have such strong feelings for her like I do and to go at the pace that she seems to be wanting it to go. I feel I would be letting her down by giving up on her. It almost feels like a test and if I hang in there I pass, but geez!, this is the toughest test I have ever taken. I have tried to make a date with her in the past couple of weeks, but her life seems to be getting in the way. In addition, she won`t answer the phone half of the time, nor will she return my calls promptly. I tried to make a date with her this weekend. I talked to her friday evening and she was heading to her father`s to spend the night. I never heard from her saturday nor have I heard from her today, yet. I feel that I shouldn`t call her today. I feel that I made the attempt to get in touch with her and now it`s her turn to return my call. Why is it when your heart gets involved that everything becomes so difficult?