thanks guys.

nomas-you're absolutely right. like i said before, when i'm doing other things i'm not thinking about it. and luckily it's not on my mind day and night. and talking to you guys and getting reassurance, as well as having mikey, does help. the crazy thing is that his sister said that they had tried coming to my house when he was in town but didn't see my car. (thank god.) i just keep thinking to myself, why? i mean, he proposed to her while he was in town. she said he wanted to say hi before he left. i am SO glad i wasn't home. (yet another sick, twisted part of me wanted to see him.) his leaving to the military was my saving grace from him. i thought i'd never have to see or hear about him ever again.

ugh, how wrong was i?

now where's tone, let's go play some poker. let's not talk to nomas because he always ditches me at bones.

you see that nomas, i have a new game buddy so there.