I have to agree with Vashti. I don't think your gay at all. I think your yearning for companionship of any kind whether it be male or female. And I know it can be very confusing when you have all these feelings, but I truly believe you just want relationships in your life (friends or other). And just because your having bad luck with women right now doesn't mean this will go on for another 8 years. Things like this happen when you least expect them to you..

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