bleh now i don't really care that much about going out with her or trying to pursue any kind of "romance", since i know its all futile in the end. About the prom... I'm not desperate at all about going with a girl, in fact, I think it might be just as fun going with the guys... I guess its just a cool thing to go with a girl you like, but then again, i fear that the further i try to get this, the harder it would be at summer to say goodbye.

But I guess my current plan is to just wait until early april to see which university i'll get into, then if i'm in a good mood, i'll ask her again to prom for good. For now, I'll just try my absolute best to see her as a friend... since i can approach friends better than crushes. and maybe get her feelings when i have a chance. (although i think its all a futile effort at the end)