i know its not infatuation. i may not be 40 and full of relationship stories and advice, but i've experienced A LOT in my 18 years. i've been in every relationsihp there is. i know the difference between infatuation and "high school" love and i know the difference between "high school" love and real love. what i feel for her is undoubtedly real. trust for me is huge and i suppose its not that i dont trust her, but that i dont trust other guys.. single guys especially. i'm fully aware of what they're capable of and i'm fully aware of what they think about 90% of the day, having been one myself.

Perhaps what i didnt mention is this guy that she kissed.. cant believe i'm even typing this right now.... the guy she kissed recently got off of a big relationship and from what i've heard, he really wants her back but my gf was there and talked to him and presented moral support. i think he just really liked that and it drove him to think that "she's the one" and that he should just disrespect the fact that she's in a relationship and try to force himself into her life. i was completely aware of the fact that he "loved" her and i was cool with it as long as he was respectful, but he wasnt. i'm not an irrational guy, but this was really a punch in the face to me. i can honestly say i sent him some rather mean messages. i think the only thing thats really holding me back from breaking up with my girlfriend is that she told him tonight before all this unfolded that they were just friends and could never be more than that.

btw thanks for the welcome and the advice.