Shit man I can relate.

When I was 5, I was having sex with my baby-sitter's daughter. She was 7 or 9, I can't remember.

I used to get punked and bullied by the other kids. One day she said "forget them, let's go have sex."

I knew WHAT it was, but didn't really know how it was done, or what the point of it was. We went behind a shed they had in their yard and got naked, did the positions (of course I wasn't erect and wasn't doing full on pelvic thrusts but still), she even pee'd in a cup and wanted me to drink it, but I didn't.

This went on for a while, any time we had alone, sometimes in her room, sometimes out in the backyard.

Then again I got naked with a girl when I was about 8, my step-mother was running a day-care at home and a girl asked me "have you ever heard of sexy?" I think she was talking about sex, but she was young, and didn't know much. So it ended up with us being naked.

I actually got caught by my step-mother for the latter occurance, which was severely embarrassing.

Now, because of the fact that what happened when I was young is looked upon as immoral, to an extent I hold myself responsible for what happened.

I'm 21. Take my advice with a grain of salt. My advice would be to accept what happened as a part of life, and grow from it, rather than NOT accepting what happened and trying to push it away forever.

It is defenitely something you will never forget, but if you express it like you are on the forums, people will accept the fact that this happened to you, and know who YOU are.

Don't be afraid to express yourself, because when you reach the point where you can express who you are 100%, you truly know yourself and everything else falls into place.