...well...

im 19 years old...20 in july....

so anyway..im the oldest child too...oldest of three gurls..with european parents..a gurl that is fresh off the boat (ok..not fully fresh..but i did come off the boat...hahah) so yeah..

he knows how my parents are reacting..and he hates seeing me like this..i spent the weekend sobbing and crying in my room like a little gurl...

i have never had a boyfriend before...because i always held back and never let anyone in my life..i had so many restrictions..and well..honestly...i had standards that i set...and ironically enough..my boyfriend doesnt meet any of those standards but i love him anyway...honestly..every moment with him is a walk to remember..he treats me like a princess...

and i dont plan on moving out cause i would die without my family..we are really close..but this has caused problems and tension and trust issues..

im staying with him though..because i cant see tomorrow without him... *awee*

you guys are awesome...