So I talked to her last night. I told her basically that right now I can’t give anything more into the relationship, that my heart is closed based on what has happened to me in the past, but that deep down I am looking for more – to be in a fully loving relationship. Those two things conflict - I know. So I concluded that I just need my time alone.

I asked her to leave it up to me to decide when to call her again – a day, a week, a month – I don’t know. She gave me a big kiss, as if she felt like she was losing me – then she asked if she could see me tomorrow. I said that if I called her – yes, she could see me. I will not call.
I really like this girl, but something inside of me tells me that I should’nt continue because our feelings will get stronger – despite her respecting me and my wishes and us taking it day by day right now. She is so great that way.
But I don’t feel for her the way I felt with my ex – it was much stronger with the ex. I think I can find that feeling again – someone for whom I really, really want to be with all the time. She is a really nice girl though and we have chemistry.
I feel we’re even in the honeymoon stage – and it just hurt me so much to say that to her last night.