actually i do wanna talk to her, she just wont pick up my calls or return my txts or emails or look at me when i talk to her. or look at me period.

im not quite sure why she is mad at me either.. the whole sex thing i can imagine, but i only did it cuz i was ready and she said it was ok. i didnt ask her if i could she just told me that it was ok, so i figured ok. and she is mad at my for that. she is blaming it all on me. its not just my fault we did it?

so if im really a shit, hayward, why am i calling her and stuff and trying to settle things when she is giving me the silent treatment?

oh, and i decided that drinking wasnt the proper way to deal with things.
well now taht you all think i am an ass and all...