deep and hallow heart
i ask not why but how
while calmly trying to destroy my vows
you grow into a being not you
and let your mind fall askew
i ask not what she feels
but YOU what do you feel
deep and hallow heart cold as steel
eating my smiles like some cafeteria meal
you amaze, suprise, and astound me
because your lies hold no grounding
midair drums are pounding
my heartbeat stopped when you downed me
would've left many crushed if they found me
but...i SURVIVE
dropping puddles through my eyes
never felt so much pain
as when you dropped me like rain
im so tired of this feeling
i just want you back
i want it to be good again
want to call you more than just friend
its just too hard for me to accept the end

just something i wrote about my first love