Going back to her probably is a bad idea. Actually, not probably but most definately.

It's just that I always thought we would have the time to do all the things we wanted to, and this happened so sudden, now I want to do things with her that I can't.


As far as her being honest with me now. This is another thing I am not sure of. I asked her when she cheated on me, and she said it was in may 2005, but the baby was born I think the 10th of Feb 2006. She said it was premature but I am thinking that she is lying so it seems that it took longer for her to cheat on me than she really did. That is assuming she fell pregnant on the first time she cheated on me.
She also claims she got pregnant from the first time, and at first told me she only did it twice, then she after asking she said around 10 times. But I really just think she is trying to make herself look as good as possible when it comes down to these things.


It just seems, that we had something special and if I don't take her back, I'll never find something as special. But, then again I don't think I could ever love her the same. I would never live with her again due to her having a baby either.

I think, in the end of the day I know we are over but having a hard time letting go.