| confused.. boy 1 or boy 2? Ok, so theres these two boys, and I'm totally confused over what to do.
Boy 1:: We'll call him Chris. He goes to my school, I have one class with him every other day, and I see him after every class. However, I usually only see him outside of school on Sundays because of my job and such. "Chris" and I have been friends since our sophmore year (we are now seniors), and we dated once at the beginning of our junior year, but broke up for various reasons. We continued to be BEST friends, and he dated this girl for about 6-8 months. So anyways, we continue to be best friends, until February of this year, where I decided I wanted to be more than friends with him. We started dating and everythings great. Until...
Boy 2:: We'll call him David. He doesn't go to my school, and I don't see him often. I met him the beginning of my junior year, when he was dating this girl from my school. We met up again over the summer (of '05), while he was still dating this girl. Well, we hung out and he told me they broke up, so he ended up kissing me, and then I found out that they were only on a "break" (he thought it meant they broke up) so he ended up cheating on her. So anyways, we dated off and on for two months. Then I ended up breaking up with him because I heard from multiple people he had cheated on me with his ex, but he still denied it. So then, we were still friends, and we talked up until the end of January of this year. All of a sudden, last Thursday, I get a call from him. His father had passed away that morning. We talked all day Thursday (I stayed home from school), and then I talked to him Friday night after work, a little bit Saturday, and now today, were the calling hours, the first time I had seen him in months. It hurt at first, then when I saw him, I got butterflies like the first time we hung out. Then, I gave him a hug, and everything came flooding back to me, all the feelings, all the love, all the happiness, all the tears, all the laughs, all the fights, all the everything..
I don't know what to do, someone please help me, I'm so confused and it's really starting to bring me down, I'm having doubts about everything in my life and it sucks... Any help would be much appriciated.  |