u guys are all right, no doubt about it. but my DEAR mum , just can't understand why i make such a big deal out of it. she said that "hey, they're just friends...whats wrong with just meeting up??? it isnt like u're his GF or anything..." great! mum even told me that i was being too jealous, and not being understanding towards him. and that's MY FAULT! can u believe it???? i told her "but mum...i thought he was THAT busy, cos he keeps on telling me that he's busy busy and busy...yet he still has time to meet up with girls! doesnt that tell u something?"

then my mum said something like "because he's alone, and u're not in the same city as him, he needs someone to talk to, cos his mum is sick...and such and such"

you know...i just wish that it's easy for me to just walk away, but my mum controls who i can or can not date !!!! it sucks!!!!! i'm gonna be 22 yrs old this may, but my parents still treat me like i'm a little kid, maybe because i'm her only child...i dont know.... i'm sooo frustrated rite now. i cant believe my parents dont even understand how i feel...to be forced to be someone who doesnt even treat me right. In her eyes....whatever he does is ALWAYS right. and i'm ALWAYS wrong. she told me "if u have that jealous attitude, u'll never find a guy" ARGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH now she really put me down!

Guys...i'm so lost........i'm upset with everybody now..upset with my "best" friend, upset with him, upset with my parents, upset with myself....i just wanna burry myself and never have to face this stupid love stuff again. yeah...that bad.