I think the other thing that bugs me about all this is that he said the previous relationships he had were just for "fun". One was a 28 yr old woman he had a 3-way with a friend of hers which is something he always had wanted to try. I mean.. he makes it sound like he's all confused and hurting and blah, blah, blah.. but in other instances it sounds like he's having the time of his life. He told me his feelings for me are much deeper though (right.. that's why they might change in 6 months?) BTW.. he toured all over the world with a very well-known musician from age 21-30 and experienced quite an extravagant lifestyle in those days. He showed me pictures. He said he's been with about 20 women altogether in his life. Some were women he re-visited while touring. I don't know.. just makes me more leary.

This sounds really bad I know.. but if he has just been using me (sexually/to get back at the wife) I'd like to hit him where it hurts. It's as though at times I think HE doens't respect me bcuz I got involved with him. Like "OK I told her the whole situation. If she' stupid enough to get involved it's her fault if I break her heart." He said something when I threatened to leave the other night and he begged me not to.. he said something like who would ever be interested in him in his situation? I said "What are you talking about??? You had 2 other women interested in you before me!" Sometimes I think he wants to go out and just **** around but feels guilty/like a bad guy. Sooo.. if that is his GAME.. I'd like to hit him where it hurts. I also think sometimes if we did break up he'd try to make it look like it wasn't anything he did.

He also told me the wife was very jealous and it was a big reason they started having problems. I asked "Did you GIVE her reasons to be jealous?" He said no. But one day he said something about a waitress who 'attacked' him when he was leaving a restaurant when he was married. He said "She just grabbed me and started making out with me. What was I supposed to do? So I kissed her back" Hmmm... right. Like he wasn't probably flirting with her like crazy until that point too. Makes me wonder if his wife DID have legit reasons for being "jealous".

And he says he doesn't have a jealous bone in his body. Well I'm a musician too and he comes to my shows every chance he gets. I get approached by all kinds of people... and guys. He watches me like a hawk... and DRAPES himself on me in those situations when he can.