I know, you are very right Tone. But I'm scared of what she's gonna say, or not say for that matter. That's part of the whole 'game' I suppose but it's still tough. Millions of folk probably go through this stuff everyday but why the hell do I feel that I'm any different! I don't get it!

I'm planning on phoning her tomorrow to try and find out what's on her mind. I'm worried that the conversation will turn out to be horrible like last time. I've got too many doubts in my head before I've even picked up the phone...that's one major problem!! And another is, I don't know how to procede with the conversation without scaring her off. Should I act like there's nothing wrong initially to test the water, get the conversation flowing a bit, then just hit her with it? Or is that a real bad idea, and should i just ask her straight out? She's 4 years younger than me and maybe a wee bit immature, but I don't want to make it look like I'm being a dick!

Really, I'm this self-conscious, and I freakin hate it!