umm, warning, this heart paon has nothing to do wit love or so, but today i had such a bad day my heart fell in deep pain,

this pain was similiar to what i have felt before. That was when my first bf wanted to break up with me when i was 14.

it hit me so hard cause this relation cause me to split with my parent and make them cry for the first time.

Now, i need to go university and i am looking for extra income. i am working as an insurance agent full time and when i come home, i use the internet to sell things off ebay and make some profit.

but i was naive and all together i have lost a total of 4000USD instead

and one hour later, when i go to the forums of ebay, i typed out the forgery people make in the internet and ask for help.

but somehow, those people accuse me of a scammer and trying to make them tell me the ways of leep hole and to make my scam much more trustable

yes i know, its my luck. Im out of luck. Now all 4 of my accounts are suspended. including my parents individual account (we dont share the same account due to privacy) and my aunt's account. Do not know why this is happening to me

two months ago i lost my grandmother who i love so much and have been living wth her for the last 18 years of my life

i just want to scream out the pain in my heart, hopefully to clear my heart abit. it is still in pain. It is the pain where it hurt till you not breath at all. like something is stuck in your heart

comment and advice is most welcome. Keiichi and cy, you can delete this thread if you want. I am just tryng to kill the painin my hear

i wonder why such silly tings make my heart go so painfull. Any idea why?

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