Yeah its only normal to feel this way afterwards for a little while......not a whole yr! You have to realize you cannot change the past.......but only the present and future. If you let him ruin you like this....the only person you are gonna harm is yourself.... by not moving on... And trust me....he HAS moved on..... So why not you?

If you need to...maybe seek some professional help. It sounds to me like you have depression....or at least that you need someone to talk to about this.

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Appreciate the good times and learn from the bad times....