Hey Pinkpuca84, I really appreciate your replys. I went to your thread.
And Im really sorry about what has happened to you. I also met him when I was young...I felt as though I had loved him since I met him pretty much...last year, I told one of my friends, about a month after it had happened. She thought it was sad. Not the depression sad though. Kind of hurt me, I guess.

I havent seen him in months. And when I do see him, its just a coincidence, nothing special. When we were young, he was my best friend, yet, Im not sure how he felt then but yeah...I really love him.

And I agree with you about the whole finding another person, I think its pretty cruel and selfish.

I have also tried to clear my mind about him.I try to be as distant as I can, but I just cant, I mean, I tried. We are kind of distant now, not really chatting on msn or anything. But I still love him. I've tried to tell myself that I only loved him back then, and he's a completly different person now. But he's not...

And if anyone is wondering why I dont tell my friends, is well...not all my friends are close, and I know they will make me tell him, or they tell him. I dont know. Alot of things happened between me and my friends after ' me and him ' were parted, and I guess I lost alot of trust towards my friends.

He was also my first. And I was never with any other guy.

Even though Im not completly better and all, I do feel comforted. I felt alot better when I was reading the comments posted.