Hold on to hope, but as Vash has already pointed out in the back of your mind try to re-enact the situation to find out what REALLY has gone wrong. What are the don't that you did that shouldn't be repeated in the future? I guess, at this point in time a valuable lesson for the future is still something you can hope to learn.

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My Demon revokes any prayer
He's grown contempt for love and hope
He betrays trust, twists truth and fair
Indifference is his way to cope
Engulfing sound of sensations
He quells with voices of despair
And muse of short lived inspirations
Flees at the sight of his cold stare
~Moy Demon - Mihayeel Lermontov~