I have noticed that it is much easier for a guy to stop talking to a woman forever, than vice versa. Women seem to have trouble dealing with that.

You have to stop stalking him (in that loving way of course.) It will only wrench your guts out more every time. My advice is to throw your computer away (or put it in the closet) and find reasons to NEVER be home. If you don't want to spend years and years feeling pain and taking time, the only way to accelerate the destruction of him in your mind is by...living.