I know what you are going through.

Me, my brother and my best friend have been through exactly the same thing.

It really hurts....but I promise that things do get better!

From what you write it does seem that your marriage is finished and I am so sorry for that.

Don't run things over in your head though...you can and WILL be happy again.

Things gets easier and before you know it you will be thinking about the new love of you life I promise.

Everyone I know who has been through the same as you has found happiness :-)