Originally Posted by Gigabitch
Is there some kind of man shortage in Florida? You've wasted a LOT of time on him.
No...not really....I think this relationship has just been more "comfortable" for me...he's the first guy that I've been with since my very nasty and painful breakup with my daughter's father....and he and I have been friends for years....I've always cared about him a lot...just now...I care about him more....much more. My daughter loves him....his daughter loves me....and I just keep thinking about how nice it will be to have a "real" family situation.
My moods about the whole situation change like the weather...one minute, I'll be so damn mad about the whole thing and want it DONE with....the next minute, I'm fine, and excited about getting to live with him.
Even when I talk to him on the phone and I'm mad because he blew me off or something, he always has a way to make me feel like everything is going to be okay. Always has SOMETHING to say that makes me feel better about everything....then I'll get off the phone...mull it over a little....and get frustrated again.
I have an at-home drug testing kit that my old drug counselor gave me when I told him my situation....maybe I should throw that at him and see what happens.
If he's doing all the right things with regards to staying clean, I have nothing to bitch about...and certainly don't want to end the relationship IF he's clean and just being a young, stupid guy. But drugs are a major no no...a deal breaker....and he knows this. I just feel like I need to know before I make any final decisions.
And even though I didn't say it in my post above...I DO care for him greatly...otherwise, I wouldn't even be going through this right now....