Thanks Clynn -

Those kids stay up forever. And by the time they do go to sleep, we're both so tried we just crash out.

Doesn't matter now anyway, it's over. Haven't spoken to her in almost a week, I have left two messages with no return calls. It's given me a time-out to think about things...

Looking back, I'm now 90% sure there's a cocaine problem. Lot's of signs, everything from running to the restoom all the time and coming out with a runny nose to the crowd she hangs out with. Let's remember, I caught her in the act doing it once. (And yeah, I know I screwed up by joining in. I'm still kicking myself for that)

I've caught her in some white lies. Nothing major, but still a red flag.

She runs very hot and cold. Some days she would call constantly and then go for two days without even returning a message. The last time I spoke to her everything was great, she was sweet and planning this coming weekend, and now 'radio silence' for almost a week. I'm not dealing with a stable person here.

Her oldest son lives with the in-laws (why?)

The oldest daughter is in jail (for what? I don't know)

She got fired two weeks ago (she did get another job immediately)

Her Mother is throwing her out of the house (why?)

Some guy that loaned her money last year is sueing her for it

She talks about how she would never go to jail for anything as she has friends in the mob. (I reminded her that both Al Capone and John Gotti rotted away in jail until they died)

Every time she goes anywhere she runs into the ex-boyfriend who attacks her ('It took five guys to pull him off me!')

I could go on and on.

Having said all that, most of the time she is sweet, loving, affectionate and family orientated. But the percentage of the above (and more) drama has far out-weighed the good. It's a shame. There was/is love there but I can't handle the roller-coaster anymore. The emotional drain is too much. Like I said, it's a shame.