Yeah, just expand yourself and you will find you will NEED to open up at one point! Just try not to make things too dramatic... just re-read the part about 9/11... maybe a bit much, dontcha think? It was a breakup, and trust me, they ALL suck (except for the rare case of a mutual understanding, which I still think is a Greek myth...) and will likely happen again. And we can either waste our lives away in seclusion and never gain andy joy in return for never being hurt... I don't think this is how we are meant to live. Sure, its' a gamble and a risk, but that is how we grow and learn and experience the life we have been given. Don't stress out over it so much! You will be surprised at what comes to you, just be ready