Heh... i was JUST about to say something very close to that...

Buddy, listen. It sucks and I'm sorry. I don't know what to tell you; sure, she is the perfect girl and the most beautiful one and smart and only drinks a little and only has sex with some guys (once she knows them of course which makes it ok in your eyes because she's on your little pedestal) but back to the point... Noone is perfect. You are disillusioning yourself from reality here, and unjustly putting tons of pressure on her to be a goddess. Be careful of that; she is a girl like any other.

You said you have never dated and gotten intimate (mentally and emotionally, maybe physically) but you made the little pep talk about "im not 15, this is truely (spelled truly) love"? Um... where does everyone get off saying this, honestly? It is NOT love; it is extreme, bastardized, blown-out-of-proportion affection and attraction and puppy love so to speak. There is sooooo much you don't know about her, and you can't find out becuase you have her on your pedestal of perfection...

I don't know how to "remedy" this situaion... until you can accept she will never be with you (which I doubt is possible for you to do) then... hmmm... I understand you value her as a friend, but being that close to her and her BOYFRIEND AAAAAAAHHHHHH will hurt you if you have these feeligns for her. So, find another one. They can all be perfect and beautiful and what not, so just be with someone who can reciprocate those feelings. Not that she is a bad person for not giving your feelings back; she has a BOYFRIEND AAAAAAHHHHHH; just that you are the one making this awkward for yourself. Do whatever you need to to get your mind off of her; and please for God's sake, do not be one of those idiots that waits around like a dingleberry for her to break up with her boyfriend... that is immature and you are completely missing everything in the picture Good luck, and just keep away from her BOYFRIEND AAAAAAAHHHHHH