Controversy... lol. Yeah, I am also very self conscious about what family and friends would think. My mom has told me before that she wouldn't want me to date her because she's got some problems(family and school).

Another thing is, she's like my best friend right now, and I don't know how things would go if something like this went through. I dunno, I guess I'm just trying to figure this out. I wish I could just get a test-dating time with her or something. Where I could see how it went and then if I didn't like it I could stop it without having anyone knowing. I just feel like if I do go out with her, since she's my best friend, if it doesn't work out, I'm gonna lose her.

Tonights gonna be interesting... she is playing a joke on her friend that wanted us to go out. Told her that we were going out, along with another one of her friends and somone else. They're totally tricking her, but we're going bowling tonight and we're supposed to act like we're together.

Heh... isn't highschool grand?