Clemence - I am sure Skye is a great guy, but for sure there are many more guys out there who would be appreciating you as a person that you are. BUT normally you do not succeed much by changing yourself into someone you are not, and settling for something that (by now alienated) Skye would like.

There would be so many things that you enjoy in life. Leave Skye, mother and your past apart, and look at what you enjoy most and consider studying in that field. When you are doing something you enjoy, your life and lifestyle changes and you would be much more comfortable with yourself. Once you reach that level, guys and love would make their way into your life without asking.

Its just that you need to take care of you first. Take care and enjoy your life.. do what is best for you!