To reply: I 'm not trying to justify what's happening by using my "youth" as excuse. I thought a lot about it, I'm always thinking about it and I feel giulty towards the wife although nothing happened until now. I know that everything is difficult and I'm not trying to justify my actions. I know that the most logical thing is to listen to my head, but I can't, I tried, I think about him all day long. Im' sure of my feelings 100% although this isn't evident nor easy nor logical. I know it. I would never have thought that it would have been posisble if someone would have told me some years ago. My feelings are really strong. I know that it sounds bad, that you have a bad impression of me and all, but you don't know me. I'm not a "mankiller" (do you say that in english?) when I feel something for someone I'm really serious about it, although now it's not evident. I'm not looking for a judgment here. I just needed to express myself how I feel and maybe communicate with someone who has lived a story quite similar to mine.

Thank you for your help and understanding,

Take care