Basically my dad criticize me early on in life and it became part of my mind set that I was never good enough which lead to other things. I use to think constantly when ever I saw a girl paying attention to me why would she want a loser like me. I haven't done anything with my life, but ridicule myself into oblivion. This is why I never went out and had fun in high school and afterwards. Besides that I never wanted a girl friend in high school. I still semi think like this time to time, but not as much as I use to.