its been a long time since i posted here but erm what the heck thought i'd shine some more light on this situation as i really believe we should of been going out by now plus im impatient lol. and yeah im pullin my hair out because i dont know why nothing has happened =\

from last time the interest went on for ages and ages. And well it just got better and better, it came to an awkward stage for a few weeks then i decided it was over after she totally ignored me one day. however then it came back.

the weeks after i was away for two days from school and when i got back my best mate was like "yeah she was asking about you while you were away" and i was like "huh?". basically she had been askin about me behind my back saying like "wheres is *name*", and yes she asked 3 times!! so it seemed she was dertimined to get an answer. she asked the teacher twice then my best mate since the teacher kinda ignored her. you could say she was nosey but then maybe she was just concerned. made me happy when i heard anyway

we started speakin again coz i basically forced her to speak so i it wouldnt be awkward anymore, she had initiated enough with me so then now i have been doin it too

funny thing is i was off ill on a tuesday the week after and wednesday we were all off due to teacher training day then i came back in on thurs and she goes "where have u been then?" like she knew i wasnt there on tues and she'd remembered my absence. i said i'd been ill etc. this is where it becomes obvious that she obviously cares for me in some way.

my mate later told me she asked about me behind my back AGAIN.. so i thought right im gonna go for it now this time she was askin my mate in private "which high school i used to go to", why she wanted to know that i dont know.. but she didnt ask my mate what school he went to so i took it as interest as i thought she was trying to find the area in which i live etc.
my mate also told me she shyed away abit and went quiet when the teacher came thru the door. Like shes hiding something.

last week i did something silly.. she left her bag in the class room with me but didnt take it with her to her next lesson (i didnt notice until i left the room but i had to go home for lunch). anyway i curious as to why she left her bag in the room with me. was it a hint for me to hang about until she came back or something? me being daft left and didnt look after it.. suppose it was not too bad because she didnt ask me to look after it but who leaves their belongings in the room with you if someone could just walk in and take her handbag? this was a free lesson for me and she had another lesson elsewhere in college, i dunno whether it was a way of her saying "im coming back here after my next lesson, plz wait here".

anyway the bottom line is i gave her my email/no. thru a card, the card was pretty straight forward which told my feelings. and well after i gave it her yesterday i believed she would text/mail me straight away but i guess she hasnt =\ its a step forward, a huge one but maybe i needed to justify my feelings or maybe she just doesnt like me or is waiting abit?

i will honestly say shes done everything which says she likes me, im 80% sure she does! but now im confused because i feel she should have texted by now :S
its been a day n abit since i gave it her.

though in the card i did put 'would be nice to hear from u over the hols' and then put some other stuff so it could be shes waiting awhile before texting.

if she cares alot and is always concerned about me but hardly knows me outside of college then that would mean she likes me right? even her spending dinners with me.. maybe it went on too long? we've also been abit distant last 2 weeks recently (not all down to us tho) so maybe that was why she lost interest?

oh also once when we were talkin bout relationships she randomly said she doesnt believe in love at first sight. like she needs to get to know someone first.
is this a way to put me down? or a way to say she doesnt want a bf but is waiting for a guy to make an impression over time?

i guess its all down to patience now.
any advice? thanks