Correct. That wasn't the smartest thing to do. However now you have to get over that.
i really need some help, i just hafto find a way to not care, i could turn to drugs, i could turn to ****ing eveyr girl that moves, but im too smart for that and i know better..
Why not look at turning to something POSITIVE? Have you ever wanted to learn a musical instrument? Did you ever want to start working out but kept putting it off? Did you ever want to learn more about cars and how to fix your own car and learn to do routine maintenance? Did you ever want to catch up on reading some certain books but never had the time?
Well, now you have the time. And ANY of those things would help to keep your mind off of it. And in the end, instead of ending up with addictions or STDs, you'll have some POSITIVE knowledge and will have turned all this new 'free time' and energy into something good and you'll end up being happy. (BTW, maybe none of those suggestions apply to you exactly, but you get what I'm saying)
Alexi