i do all kinds of things for my mom. i pay half the bills of the house, i watch my little sister sometimes, i give my mother gas money quite often because she can't even afford.

dear god i hope this bullshit is not normal. it is so pointless. i have been in a tornado before. first things are very rough, it rains hard and it's windy... then it gets calm. then it starts to hail and a tornado comes in ripping everything up.

when something like that happens, i sense it coming. right now, i feel a tornado brewing between my mother and stepfather. it's not the first one either.

my mother does not trust the man. she is always checking his email because apparently he is trying to date someone else online. can you believe someone could be that cold and cruel, after someone that loved them would have a kid with them, move all the way out to the middle of ****ing nowhere and work a shit job, leaving all her family and friends to be with them?? i cannot imagine the things it would take. i could never mislead a person that deep.

what a life ruiner.

sometimes adults just blow up at little things and it's so unreal. i can't picture myself ever getting mad over such silly and pointless things.

i realize that it's her problem, but i feel that she is on the verge of suicide or osmething. she has mentioned it before, i suggested all kinds of things and i don't know what to tell her. people tell me it's her problem not miine, but she is my mother, she has nobody to talk to about this mess, i can't leave her hanging. i *need* to do something about this. i *need* to give her some kind of advice.