Ok, not sure how many guys are like this but, im 19 and never had oral sex. I've gone down on my current girlfriend proably 4 times or so, she loves it so every now and then i do it to keep her happy... buttt-- shes not really ever gone down on me.

Before we started dating, i told her i never wanted her to do such a thing for one reason - her ex boyfriend always begged her to do it and to say the least she hated it and him. Also, i never want her to do something she doesnt want to do and I never wanted her to put me in the same categorie as him. One time, she said she wanted to do it for me and i said no over and over again, finally it was to much and i let her do it -- 30 seconds into it, i asked her to stop. I was all upset about it. I didnt want to lose her love to say the least, but her trust, caring and the fact that i wanted to be the last thing but demanding of her. I thought she was gonna think i was a liar. That i was saying all that stuff to get her and now i was gonna use her for whatever i wanted. I Love this girl to death and if it means that she cant go down on me because i would lose her, well then f**k it i wont get one.

Heres the problem. It's gotten my curious, i want to know what its like and how it feels. She told me last night she wants to do it for me, that she cares about me and if it makes me happy then she wants to. But again, i dont know the after effect. I dont want her to hate me or think i am a liar. I dont want things to change between us. We live together, we spend a ton of time together, shes my bestfriend on top of being my girlfriend and my love. What if i like it and she doesnt wanna do it? What if she hates me afterwards? Theres so many things that might happen. What do you all think?

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