Hi everybody, i'll do my best to explain you my situation. I met a girl last summer during my trip in florida. She had a boy friend in FL. I've passed 2 week with her, everyday... When I saw her for the first time, I felt so strange...it was love but a bunch of love.. I couldn't even think about another thing except her. I've never felt that way before and this is the same thing exactly 1 year later. I don't know if the "coup-de-foudre" exist... but It was that. At that time, I knew I was in deep shit (pardon me). She lives in florida, i live 30 hours from her in Canada. It was an impossible relation and I knew it. After these 2 weeks, she came to her natal city where i'm living. She stayed with us about 2 months. We passed so much great time each other.

The story begin here. We had sex many times, while she was dating another guy in florida. I couldn't let pass that chance so I did it... even if she was not alone.

I was truly in love, but she didn't felt comfortable in that situation and she leave me 1 times, after that, we came back together, It happened two time, me, and her, after that I told her it was impossible for the 3rd time, she didn't want to leave me...

At that time, the relation was a lot more simple, I offered a ring to her because I wanted a little part of me in her life even in Florida.

She came back to florida, we've talked on the phone every two weeks, after, every months... and now... every 3 months. I don't call her anymore because I feel so shitty every time I talk to her and my feelings hurt me a lot.

We still have a contact and she still think at me but I don't know if it's in a friendship way or a love way.

She leaves her boyfriend a couple of weeks later... she came back with her ex ex boyfriend after that...

They had a lot of bad discussion about me and her... and he said if she came back to quebec, he'll leave her... this was exactly 8 months after she came back to FL. She dumped him a couple of weeks after that. She was supposed to come back here this summer but his family have some money problem. It didn't happen.


I don't know if i'm stupid but she probably still think about me and she probably talked about me a lot with him. Her boyfriend deleted my phone number on her cell phone too...

But the problem is, I can't find another girl like her, I think about her every day... I mean EVERY DAMN DAY... I'm ready to buy an airplane just to see her every week. What should I do ? I'm not that stupid, I'm realistic and I know we can't live together except If i'm moving there...


I've got an email from her today and she want to talk to me........ I don't know If I can do it... I mean, every time I call her, I came back to the same point, I still love her.

She told me last summer I was the type of guy she can pass his entire life. Is it normal to say that ?

What can I do... i'm lost... my heart is broken... , I don't plan my life without her....