Thanks for the good words. I guess it does seem alright when you look at it from an objective point of view, but it doesn't feel like that. Perhaps I am worrying too much. I do have a date to the ball, but not with the girl I want! (I'll apply names to these girls to clear things up. The girl I'm in love with and talked on the phone and all that, I will call "Jenn." The girl I promised to take to the ball, but am uninterested in because of Jenn, I'll call "Ann." There, all straigtened out. )

I was seriously thinking about calling Jenn today but I decided not to. I don't want to pester her. Two of her ex-boyfriends have drived her nuts by calling her a lot after they broke up, and I don't want to act the same way. Plus, some previous advice I got here was to let her call me. At this point I don't even know if my chances with her are good or not. I told her I liked her. She doesn't want to date anybody right now, though. And she never really said if she liked me that way or not, so I'm in the dark. Someone pointed out to me that if she did like me, she would of asked to go out with me instead of her previous boyfriend (she asked him out before he could ask her). I thought about that. I fell for her long before she got with her boyfriend, and when she did, and I found out it was her who asked him out, I figured she didn't really like me the way I thought she might have. But I kept obsessing. Now she's single and doesn't want to date, and it's driving me nutso.

Hopefully she'll call sometime soon. I want her to. I need her to, 'cause I can't get her out of my head for too long. I could just "let it go" and forget about it until she calls (if she does), but that's almost impossible to do. She'll always pop back in my mind. I just don't think she will though. If she hasn't called by now, she might not ever. Maybe she needs time. Maybe sometime later this summer she'll sit and think about finally picking up the phone and dialing my number. I want to call her, but I probably shouldn't. I sometimes think that if I don't call she'll think I don't really care about her or forget about me, and that if I do call I'll be bothering her or making her uncomforatable.

Other than that, your'e right. There really is nothing much I can do, except try and get all this stuff off my mind so I'm not miserable all the time.