Ok one things for sure..."dont know what you got til its gone"...statement sucks but true. Maybe she realized you werent ready for a committment and she was and thought this would be good for HER and her own needs in her time in her life.

Youre wanting to ask her to try and again and continue or restart your relationship while she is gone...why not ask her and talk to her about it? Let her go on this trip knowing youre willing to make things work. Youge got to give her something to chew on here...

I do understand your lack of not being ready for another intense relationship-your weariness per say but youre giving what you can to her right now and she needs to understand why and have patience. Good things come to those who wait-if she TRULY cared about you she would be there to support you and have compassion and understanding about your needs and wants...BUT you also have to understand hers. In a situation as this-both individuals MUST understand eachothers needs and wants, and work through them together. But also not let one or the other be walked on and feel used in the process. IF you see and understand eachothers goals then work towards them together.

It doesnt sound as if shes willing to wait. But if you want to give this woman an opportunity you gotta say something to her...I agree with Moby here-dont keep making the same mistakes. If you also think shes worth fighting for and waiting for let her know it.

You dont want sit around with your life down the road doing the what ifs...you dont-so go for it! If youve got something special with her give her what you can and let her understand where you are in youre life-if she feels the same than it will work out for the best...somehow. But you have both have to want it.

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